ZippyCatholic: an inadequate Farewell

His real name was Matthew, known in the universe of Catholic blogging as zippycatholic. Having mostly retired from blogging, I am not at the moment well-equipped to write this, but I will not let Zippy go without saying goodbye. As I said to Paul Cella, “It’s just that the sadness of the thing weighs so heavily, I almost feel as if words have run dry.” And even if they hadn’t, I doubt I could find the ones needed to express what Matt’s (Zippy’s) friendship meant to me.

For most of our acquaintance, dating from 2002, I (twenty years his senior) was the student and he the teacher. I can take credit for having awakened him to only one thing: the evil of the atomic bombings at Hiroshima and Nagasaki, that the evil lay in the fact that this really was a matter of intentionally murdering the innocent. But even for that I can’t take credit, for my own eyes had been opened by Elizabeth Anscombe, and it was primarily her analysis that my essay transmitted. Zippy said he hadn’t thought much about the matter before that, but once he saw the truth of a thing, he took it where it needed to go. Against the apologies still offered for those bombings by some Catholic conservatives, who at the same time vehemently opposed abortion, he took to calling it “abortion by bomb.” You can see him at work here.

But that’s it. After that, I mostly sat at his feet. He (along with an assist from Lydia Mcgrew) helped me to think more clearly about ectopic pregnancy, forced me to question my assumptions about the morality of voting, changed my mind about the justice of the Iraq War, and convinced me that a certain ‘enhanced interrogation’ technique (that marvelous euphemism) known as waterboarding, was in fact what he called it, “water-torture.” That only scratches the surface. His critiques of liberalism and economic injustice (particularly in the matter of usury) were likewise compelling, and if I was not always thoroughly convinced, it was probably because I didn’t fully understand what he was saying.

Naturally, I am going to miss him terribly. He was my brother in the Faith, in arms in defense of it, and my dear friend. Three years ago he sat on the sofa in my living room, his precious, adoring fourteen year old daughter beside him. (One of those girls, possessed of so sweet a nature, that it revives in people like me hope for the future). She played the piano for a couple of hours while Matt and I discussed a few of the issues that consume us online, but there wasn’t really much of that, since it wasn’t necessary. The essentials were already in place. It was more like two old friends catching up after a long absence. That’s how easy he made it. I am an annoyingly inquisitive fellow, but he didn’t deflect any of my questions, which can only be the result of trust. It was as if this were not the first time we had ever met, even though it was. Perhaps some of you have experienced this. Anyway, we took the daughter to an art store, bought her some stuff, and then met up with my daughter and her fiancee for dinner. It was a delightful time; I have pictures, but don’t know if he would want that privacy barrier broken. The important thing about that visit that I must remember, and which struck me only well after the fact, was that he came down here just to meet me and my family, and for no other reason. We were not a stopover on his way to a week at the beach. But why must such gratitude as I now have leave its impress so belatedly?

Last year, we were supposed to meet again in St. Pete, but it didn’t work out. Then, early this October, we (he and his wife, I and mine) were to meet for dinner in Clearwater, but obviously that didn’t work out either. At the age of 52, he was killed while bike riding with his wife, an exercise they indulged frequently, daily for all I know. He was wearing a helmet, but the head trauma sustained was insurmountable. And thus was the internet’s most brilliant Catholic apologist for the moral law, and for the Church’s authority to transmit it, taken from us. His work on the usury question alone ought to find him a place in history, but I don’t know if it will. It’s not clear to me that modern Catholics care enough about the issue for that to happen. You can find that work here.

Even as we attempt to impose order upon the world, and proclaim our worship of the Being who orders all, it is as if some demon of chaos is really in charge, It could not have been his time. Surely he had more to do, and say. His family needed him. It is manifestly unjust, and if ever there was occasion for despair, this is one of those.

But (I think Zippy would tell me) it was his time, else God’s angels would have been there to bear him up. And if he had more to say, he is likely content now just to listen, inhabiting as he does that place where all argument comes to an end. To quote the man directly: “…it is better to have been conceived, died horribly in a tsunami, and spend eternal life in the Beatific Vision than it is to never have been conceived at all….A corollary is that evil doesn’t have anything whatsoever to do with God. Literally. The fact of evil (I won’t say existence of evil because that will freak out the evil-as-absence crowd) is an insult to God, at least, again, from our perspective. But it is an insult that He tolerates, and indeed has directly endured Himself personally by becoming one of us — for our sake.” Still, unlike me, he will not see his children marry, or know their children, his grandchildren. And so the anger and the sadness linger, battling in the soul for pre-eminence of place. I know it’s wrong, but that’s the way it is for now.

A lot of people feel cheated. A family of loyal commenters at his website are now left to wander the wilderness in search of a guide, or to content themselves with the Zippy archives, which might be enough. I, and no doubt many others, conversed with him frequently by email. Deprived of his counsel, where do we look to fill this hole in our universe?

But in the end it’s not about us. It’s about a wife (an extraordinary woman in her own right) who has lost her prince, and two college age kids who have lost his protection (on this side of the veil, anyway). I trust, though, and am actually quite certain, that what he gave them will keep them armed for life. I can only pray that the Lord Jesus now holds him close, a man who fought so hard to defend the Good, the True, and the Beautiful, which were not ideas, but a Person who once walked the earth. Saith Zippy: “…upon reflection…even true ideology has the tendency to place abstract truth above the actual incarnate world. And that is backwards in terms of priority, turning the truth into a lie: truth at bottom isn’t about What, it is about Who.”

In our last email exchange I asked him if he’d been keeping up with all the news about the rot in the church. “Yeah,” he said, “this is starting to feel like a tipping point in the Church, but I guess we’ll see.” We made arrangements for that dinner, he brought me up to date on his family, then asked, “How is everyone there? Has the cuteness of your granddaughter created a crack in the space time continuum?”

Yes, I’ll miss him, the man, and the voice God lent him for a time in service to the Truth.

Our houses are built in a foreign land,
You sleep within beneath changing skies,
Till the Christ Child takes at last your hand
And bids you Wake, and then, Arise.

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In a follow-up (soon), I’ll be posting some excerpts of Zippy’s participation at my website. Meanwhile, Kristor offers a nice tribute at the Orthosphere, and likewise Austin Ruse (who once clashed with Zippy over the torture question but reconciled with him over lunch) at Crisis. And we must not forget Paul Cella and friends at What’s Wrong with the World, where Zippy and I worked together for several years.


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11 Responses to ZippyCatholic: an inadequate Farewell

  1. Terry says:

    We should all be so lucky as to have a Luse to pen a valedictory for us. Sir, you made me weep, again, for Zippy.

  2. Kristor says:

    Likewise, Bill. Thanks for this beautiful remembrance.

    Still so very sad.

  3. Bill Luse says:

    Thanks for stopping by you guys. Still can’t believe it.

  4. Kristor says:

    I know, right? The shock hasn’t worn off much.

  5. William Luse says:

    One thing I didn’t mention in the post is his personal generosity. Cella mentions it at W4. He once sent me a Nikon camera that must – when new – have cost in the vicinity of a 1,000 dollars. He didn’t need it anymore and could have sold it for good money. Unfortunately, my wife had just bought me a Canon Rebel T something or other for my birthday, and so his gift is today in the possession of my daughter. When I told him I found the Canon (and the Nikon) difficult to master, he sent me about 4 typed pages explaining how to use it. That’s a lot of time out of a man’s day and still astounds me. You can read the post about it (very short) here: http://williamluse.net/Apologia/2016/05/new-toy/ – and Zippy’s, at the time, very cryptic comment.

    Combing through my archives searching for his comments has been very painful. He’s there all over again, speaking to me, to us, as though time were standing still. I think I had really very little idea of how much he meant to me.

  6. tso says:

    Very moving, interesting, and potent meditation. I had no idea you were that close to him. Thanks for posting.

  7. Paul J Cella says:

    There’s an interesting article in today’s Wall Street Journal about the investment turbulence surrounding (of all things) the pine forests of the Deep South. I will not summarize it. Reading it this morning, in a flash I thought, “I need to run this by Matt; he’ll love the ironies.”

    . . . Oh shit. (Sorry Bill.)

    That’s how grief gets you. You may be shocked at the original news, and briefly rendered numb to emotion. You almost kick yourself for your lack of emotion. Then, ten days, two weeks later, in an unguarded moment, bereavement punches you right in the face.

    But I’m with St. Paul, whose defiance I have myself quoted at memorial services: Oh death, where is your victory?

  8. William Luse says:

    That’s happened to me several times already. A question about some matter pops into my head, so I click the shortcut to gmail, but before I can hit the ‘compose’ button, I remember. It pretty much sucks.

  9. Wood says:

    William Luse,

    A wonderful tribute Im just now reading. How jealous I am of your years long friendship and conversations. It is still so sad.

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  11. William Luse says:

    Don’t be jealous. You’ll meet him someday. Meanwhile, dig through the archives at his place and W4.

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